waking up on the wrong side of the bed foreshadowed the day's attempts at messing with my head so i keep on following the impossible round am i unable to understand that the impossible can't be found no warning and no real reason just excuses thrown together to explain the change of seasons crying instead of eating staring at the wall instead of sleeping calm though i look really panic overtook throwing my arms up high i look to the sky singing songs that try to explain why rarely two people feel the same way accepting each others faults and together they stay but it is hard to accept so i just won't think that'll be better than waiting to sink the realisation they won't be there tomorrow the sick in your stomach that is so hard to swallow this is all temporary and i'll remember that for free the disagreements the laughter and the tears are just to test me. i think i've failed